“If you don't know where you're going, stop
racing to get there.”
Ever since I was a child I had always been anxious to
keep moving on the next thing in life and never really taking my time to enjoy
the simple things in my life. The thing is I never knew what I was moving on
to, and if I would even enjoy it like the previous things. That’s when it hit
me hard, that not everything in life is easy, not everything in life is fun,
not everything is life makes sense, and people aren’t perfect. I was 9 years old,
the day my dad left me. Life was never the same after that, it was like a piece
of me was missing, and the worst part was he never told me why he left. That
father figure in my life had been removed in the worst way, even though my mom
tried as hard as she could to keep me in line, she never could, and I cannot
tell you how sorry I am for making my mom go through that. I never really “fit
in” with the popular groups so I just kind of made my own and whoever wanted to
be a part of it was welcomed warmly.
The sad truth is I’m not the only person my dad left
behind, he left my mom, and my brother Suge. But what I’ve learned and what I
have realized is that my dad isn’t perfect, he’s just a man like me, we both
make mistakes. No that does not make what he did okay, but it does make it
understandable and relatable. People are always going to hurt you and let you
down in life, and you just got to be able to accept that, and realize its life.
Sometimes it may seem like nothing will get better, but that’s a lie and you
know, eventually with time things will get better and YOU will get better, but
only if you allow yourself too. I have kind of strayed away from my original topic
about my life but that’s okay, because part of my life is dedicated to helping
other people through experiences ive had in my life, that might help other
people going through the same thing. With that said feel free to come and talk
to me if your struggling and maybe you feel like you’re just alone, come talk,
no I’m not some perfect person with all the answers, if anything we can help
each other out, but I think that’s how it’s meant to be.
I like what you said about using your experiences to help other people...I think that's one of the big secrets of life--learning from each other. And what a sweet image you found to accompany your piece.
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